you might not understand this

When i look back to the past, all i see is mistake. Well, some parts of the story might had been better if i have a time machine, but i know the ending would never change. Even though you can have better memories, even though a few things can be fixed, the ending will remain that way coz there are certain things that are meant for you, but only temporarily. They'll fade away as time goes by, just like foliage that sheds themselves when the season comes. That's the nature of life. You can't live your life forever blaming others or yourself because sometimes it's rather a matter of fate. There are always some points in your life where you've fought so hard to gain what you long for but you can never have it coz fate doesn't let you. And on the other hand, there are things that seem so easy to be earned, even without giving any effort. Hence sometimes it's none of those mistakes that makes things fatal, that causes them to end beyond the way we want them to be, but destiny. So dear self, why don't you give yourself a break and be grateful for now you're wiser than before?